On the other hand, if it were not for this virus, I would not have had the time to reflect on the past, contemplate the present, and dream about the future. And as much as I would love to say that they all contained happy thoughts, they were equally filled with sad ones--a complementary balance of sorts.
There are many things I would like to change about my past, if given the chance. But at the same time, I probably would not be where I am or who I am today without those experiences. And who is to say that I would not have come across those instances, somewhere down the road?
I cannot say either, that I am absolutely happy with my life now. It is not where I thought I would be, then again, I never really knew where I hoped to be at this point. However, I can say that I am thankful for the people who have stuck with me through and through, and the new ones that have come into my life--they keep me sane amidst all this insanity life comes with.
The future is the thought I have most difficulty with. It is always a millisecond away. It is what frightens me most, but at the same time gives me a sense of hope. Unpredictable, but suggestible. Changing with each decision we make; an infinite number of possibilities.
I wonder what tomorrow will bring...
